Yesterday

It was the first time in these last two weeks when i realized what i have done. It was the first time when i wasn't sure anymore, it was the first time when i started to have doubts, it was the first time when i felt that my instincts could be wrong. I was angry and disappointed, but it lead me in a strange direction. I walked home yesterday night, by foot, after midnight, i wanted to be afraid, i wanted to be scared of the dark, the strange people on narrow streets, the silents, and the echo of my shoes. But it never happened. I felt secure. The wind cooled down my mind.
It was crazy what i have done.
I got scared.